"Finding Solace in Self"

"Navigating Life's Contrasts, Betrayals, and the Pursuit of Mental Peace"

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Have you guys ever felt like giving up, giving up in the sense of just giving up trying to explain everything to people? Prove that you are right. Why do I have to? Why can I not be right just to myself? People can have such contrasting thoughts that it just gets you nothing but the feeling that you are afraid, afraid of what people will think, afraid of what you will do towards their expectations, will you be of any good, are you any good? So many questions and at the same time, so many things, to fear that just makes you want to give up...

At a particular instant in life, affection and a lot of affection can be the reason for just wanting to give up. The fact that you once sacrificed your mental health for theirs', the ones 'you' cared about, but turned out to be just 'you' caring and turned out to be nothing but a betrayal, the betrayal to all the affection you showed, the betrayal of not even getting friendship out of all you wished for or hoped for at least...

People at times ask me what made me separate myself from people this much, and honestly, I don't consider it separation but at the same time I do. Separation because of the fact that people can be so hard to understand and can be harsh in ways you never imagined. They understand by their concept of understanding. We call it hearing but not listening. If someone doesn't wish to talk or doesn't so openly talk anything out people can say, "Oh, he is a great listener, he understands people", or, "Oh, he has his own ego towards not wanting to listen to people and is extremely self-oriented", but the matter of the fact is that that's what ur scared of, expectations and people, because you were once selfless, you always wished to help out the person beside you first, but they did not...

Nowadays, I don't argue much, what exactly do we argue for, has anyone thought about that? What do we get out of it? I'll tell you, mental peace, mental peace to the fact that you were right, but are you even right? There are an infinite number of perspectives and we all have a different view of life as a whole, for the 9-5 job and for some exploration, and adventure, while others are just finding themselves out. Oh yes, that... The fact that people don't feel like stopping. 

Bunny from Yeh Jawaani Hai Deewani said, 'I want to fly and not stop, I don't want to wait but just succeed'. But wait... You don't want to stop? Then how will you ever experience the pain you put in along with the hard work you put in? How will you ever experience the fact that you could've learned so much better and how will you ever understand that at times stopping, enjoying, and relishing the moments that you put in so much effort for is all that's needed? 

People tend to bring in so many thoughts that at the end of the day are the sole reason for anxiety. Their so-called one-sided, one-face approach and the inability to learn and understand and instead of hear, and listen is the sole reason for why I've focused on myself. I don't argue but rather say what I would in Hindi, "Yaar, Tum maano toh theek, nah maano, toh theek", which necessarily means, "It's great if u understand if u don't, then that's great as well". My response to everything now is, "Alright man, you are right, Happy ?" Because at times that's the only thing people look for and what's best for you. The best for you is to keep your mental health intact, Smile bit by bit every day, and just, "Say LOL and move on". In the end, when the oxygen level decreases in your flight, help yourself out with the oxygen mask first instead of what you would've done previously, help the others out...

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